Why

My family.
What is a family?
Why do I hate them?
Why do I hate my mother?
Why does my father disgust me?

And it makes me hate myself.

Because what kind of happy healthy man doesn't love where he's from?
Those he's from.

They think they know me, and they're frustrated because I'm not that man.
I think I know them, and I've frustrated because they are't those people.

I don't understand this fundemental dislike I have.
Do I hate my hevenly father?
Why?
Doesn't The Son only point to The Father?

This really really hurts.